Goodbye My Friend………Will I ever Love again????

I need to be honest……..I haven’t been able to Love someone like I Loved my Mom.

A year and a half ago my Mom passed away.  She has been the most influential person in my life. 

Before she died she wrote all of my family personal letters.  In mine, she wrote that when I was born she took me home from the hospital and thought to herself, “I have no idea what to do now.”  I was her first born child and she was only 21 at the time…………she was scared.  But, she started to remember the greatest commandment.  From that day she decided that there was no secret formula.  All she needed to do was Love me with her whole heart. 

Her Love was something my whole family still longs for.  She never wanted nice things or a comfortable life……..she just wanted to be a good Mom.  And that she was.

Then, early one morning she passed away from Breast Cancer.  It has been the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with and I long for the Love that she gave me.  It was Love so True that my family has had a tough time trying to grasp that Love and give that to others.

I need to confess that I’m not sure I can Love like she could.  I’m just not that sure…….

It is tough to lose the person in the world that Loves you the most.  When that love is gone, you can’t explain the emptyness. 

And I don’t know if I can show that Love.  She gave up everything for us.  Can I really give up everything for someone else?  I’m just not sure…….

There is a new song I have been listening to that is coming out soon by an artist who just lost their mom very recently, as well.

The song is about this artist’s horrible loss and has been helped me put my feelings into words.  These are the Lyrics.

On lonely nights I start to fade.

Her Love is a thousand miles a way.

Goodbye my Friend, Will I ever Love again?

Memories made in the Coldest Winter.

At the End of the song, the artist confesses how he really feels.

Goodbye my Friend, I won’t ever Love again………ever again.

That’s just how I feel sometimes.