I wish I could take it back……..

I wish I could take back a conversation that I had yesterday.  I want another opportunity to make things right.

I’m back home in Tampa and I did not show the love that I say I believe it.

I was walking out of a Walgreens heading back to church (which makes this more painful) when a guy who was homeless asked me for some money.  I said I didn’t, which was the honest truth (It is important to note that in my earlier days I would say no even if I really did have some), but he said he needed money for new shoes.  I looked upon his shoes and saw they were nearly ripped in two.  My mind raced and I tried to think of a way to solve this problem.  I thought about offering him my sandals, but I decided against it for two reasons.  One being that I figured he would say no thanks. The other reason was that I didn’t want to be shoeless for the rest of the night.  I nicely said I didn’t have any cash on me, he said no problem and then I was on my way. 

I just can’t get this conversation out of my mind.  I should have offered him my sandals, but my selfishness held me back.  I wish I could take it back……..

Even if he said no, at least he would have known that I was willing to give up the sandals on my feet for him. 

I hope I never act so selfishly again….what has happened to me?

This has been my most painful post to write. 

I hope sometime soon we will meet again.  Then I can tell him sorry…..sorry for my selfishness.

I’m  so sorry……Lord forgive me.